At the risk of diluting what I am trying to keep going (get going?) with this blog, I decided to get a little sumpin’ sumpin’ set up over at Posterous with a Fierce and Mighty flavor. Posterous is a ridiculously easy way to do a blog or just share photos, videos, random updates or whatever else on-line and you can do it just by sending along an e-mail. It’s incredibly slick – if you send along an attached photo, it neatly pops it up with your post. If you send multiple photos? POW! A snazzy little gallery is created. Send a YouTube link? Boom goes the dynamite – you get the video embedded on the page.
So in the interest of having a place to fire up a whole lot of randomness that does not fit into longer posts (which is what Fierce and Mighty is dedicated to), I present to you:
Enjoy. Perhaps one day I will come up with a way to integrate these two areas together a little more tightly.
An interesting thing often occurs when I sit down to write up almost any blog post I do… a gnawing sort of feeling that, even though I may like what I’m writing, I haven’t the slightest clue whether it will resonate with a single soul out there on Teh Interwebz. Needless to say, that can be a bit of an unsettling feeling because I do my utmost to ensure my blog entries are authentic – what you read is 100% pure me. Straight, no chaser.
In that way, I can relate a touch to the famous quote by Nietzsche, “And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.” Now granted, I am not generally a big fan of Nietzsche’s work because what he wrote (these large and powerful texts full of bravado) stood in stark contrast to how he lived (meek and mild, blending into the background), but I do like the quote. He may never have intended in such a way, but it often feels like how it is to sit down, stare at the open screen in front of me on my Mac and think, “Holy crap… is anyone really going to care AT ALL about any of this?”
Fortunately, some people do seem to care and have been nice enough to say so. Thank you to all of you – you keep me going.
But there is the daily challenge for us all in many ways: looking ahead into a future we can only view as that same kind of darkly murky abyss where nothing is clear and a good long stare will bring about nothing but even more anxiety, hand-wringing and general bad mojo. Seriously – it’s science. I looked it up in the New England Journal for the Furtherance of Mojofication Studies. It’s a very scholarly periodical designed for superior intellects like mine.
That’s why I realize a little more every day that the greatest triumphs are rarely a singular shining moment of transcendent excellence (although they surely can be). It’s much more often a collection of smaller moments that will eventual grow, gain momentum and become something much bigger than you could really expect when first starting out.
To use a strength and conditioning example to illustrate. When most people begin a serious exercise program, the gains come along at a fairly rapid pace as your body basically soaks up the new challenge and adapts to it, week over week. However, this will slow or, if you aren’t terribly thoughtful in your approach, stop all together. Once you’ve been doing something a while, new improvements do not happen nearly as rapidly, but rather, they develop as a slow build. It’s only at the end when you look back you realize how far you’ve come and how much you’ve truly accomplished.
So for me, it’s just one blog post at a time and with each ensuing entry, hopefully something approximating a body of work will come into focus… and maybe a few more people will read it, tell their friends and so on. I am still in the beginner stage where I should be a little smarter about getting my site a little more “pop” – no question about that. But it still won’t change the fact that in order for this project of mine to grow… it’s a series of entries just like this one, day in and day out.
You may not have a blog, but I know there is something you are working towards as well. We all have that “thing” that stokes our passions. Put in the daily work as best you can. I’m doing my best at it and some days are better than others.
Step up to that abyss, but don’t waste your time staring into it. It only stares back into you and it’s not a staring contest you will ever win. Instead? Give it a quick wink and promptly kick it’s ass a little bit every day.
This distinguished-looking fellow on the left is one John Calvin and let me tell you something… I’m never going to invite him to a party at my house for 2 very important reasons. First, he’s dead. That truly puts a damper on any real chance of an invite to Chez Kuzia outside of some kind of freaky-deaky seance… and this guy doesn’t play that game. The second reason is despite his importance as a historical figure in the Protestant Revolution, a major tenet of his philosophy was that of predestination. So, in other words… your deeds and actions in this world really don’t mean squat because whether you will end up in Heaven or Hell was determined before you were even born. Yikes.
So it’s not that I don’t invite people with differing views over to have a cold beer and watch a game. Au contraire. But a philosophy built around the notion that your actions in this world are for naught? That’s not how to liven up an intimate gathering of friends, you know? The guy was the original Buzz Killington (you know… the OTHER distinguished gentleman depicted in this blog).
In my wacky view of the world, there are meaningful choices to be made at almost any point in your life. You can really choose any moment to change things up. Sure, the change can be hard as hell to pull off… but it’s still there as an option to embrace if you make that decision… and not the LeBron James kind of “Decision” where you get to go on TV and wallow around in your own self-involvement. Yuck.
I know that, for myself, change is never that easy of a thing, depending on what the contemplated change may be. Obviously the bigger the change, the deeper the level of hemming and hawing on my part. Even in the midst of all of that, I still find a tremendous amount of comfort and, dare I say, hope in the fact that choice and free will are always within my reach.
Take today, for instance. I decided enough was enough and finally got my lazy-no-blogging-keister in gear and got this post up. It became a matter of just making the decision to stop putting off blogging, stop accepting what (in the moment) can seem like perfectly fine excuses not to do it and just do it.
The funny thing is that my decision stems mostly from being generally fed up… a condition that find is perhaps one of the best catalysts of change. You just need to hit that point of “Oh for the love of God… I can’t take it any more. Let’s get cracking.” That’s where I found myself as I returned from my work trip last week to Oregon, which went very well from a work perspective, but which was completely dismal from a sasquatch-spotting perspective. I mean seriously… I was there Tuesday through Friday. Not even a glimpse out of the corner of my eye? Anyhoo, the reflection time during the travel gave me some impetus to get this blog back up and going.
Plus… you have to admit… it’s pretty awesome to juxtapose John Calvin and Buzz Killington together… and to use the word “juxtapose”. +1 for me.